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Name: Liv Country: United States State: Missouri Metro: Springfield Birthday: 11/28/1985 Gender: Female
Interests: I love hanging out with my friends, parties, boys *cough*, music...lots 'n lots of music Dave Matthews Band gotta love those guys! Expertise: Ya know...I just don't know... I would probably have to say being a dork...but I do know how to have a good time! Occupation: Student Industry: Business
Message: message meEmail: email me AIM: lgs2004
Member Since:
1/4/2005
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| Let's just say I don't know where to begin. Hmmm...here's a word, OFFENDED I absolutely love it that people have called me their friend for the past two fucking years and now that I am taking a semester off treat me like the shit under their feet. I can't even begin to describe how offended I am. Yes, I am taking a semester, to pay off a 5000 dollar credit card bill, not because of my grades, but does that give anyone the right to ignore someone they call a "friend" or a "sister"? I call people over and over again and feel like I'm making an annoying ass of myself. Should I just take a hint and realize that no one really cared about me in the first place, that they were just my friend because they felt sorry for me or some stupid shit like that?!??? I really don't understand it. Maybe I should just stop talking to everyone cause that is obviously what they want. Two of my best friends at SMS, at least I thought they were my friends don't even talk to me. One doesn't even answer his phone and then accuses me of not calling him when I feel like a stalker because I call him so fucking much. The other, everytime I call him has some stupid excuse and says, can I call you back and never does until the next night. And by the way, I would love to know why guys call me from Springfield in the middle of the night. Why not call me during your lunch break or between classes to see what's up instead of when you're drunk or just bored. It is so offensive when you call me and tell me you're bored, it's like I'm you're way out of boredom. So please tell me if I should come back, I'm so sick of wondering if it's worth it. My degree is, but I can get that anywhere, friends that I have made that I think I have established lasting friendships with at MSU are going to be kind of hard to find anywhere else. So thanks..... especially to all those that have cared | | |
| So I have a confession to make....
I am in love with someone who... 1. I dated last year, and should be over by now 2. Basically dumped me for a high schooler and in the process broke my heart worse than William did (which is pretty darn bad) 3. Definitely does NOT feel the same way about me...(I'm guessing aka knowing that's the truth) 4. Kissed me at the beginning of the semester and broke my heart all over again...
I REALLY DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE!!!
I'm trying my damndest to be his friend...but my heart wants so much more than that and I know if I tell him he will freak the hell out (Thank GOD he doesn't have xanga)....GAH!!! HELP ME!!!! What's really sad is that I know I should be over him, and I tell myself that all the time but it doesn't want to go away for some very very strange reason. I'm even trying to like someone else...and I can't have this baggage...so I guess I should just find out how he feels about me, even though I pretty much already know...
*end of confession*
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| Have you ever:
1. Slept naked? yes
3. Made Out with a member of the same sex? not sober 4. Drove a car? yes 5. Stole anything? yes 6. Ever been in love? oh I'm in love right now 7. Been dumped? yes 8. Stole money from a friend/family member? no 9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? yes 10. Been in a fist fight? nope...defended someone who was in one though 11. Snuck out of your/someones house? yes 12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? yes...definitely yes 13. Been arrested? haha...no 14. Hugged a stranger? no 15. Met up with a stranger of the opposite sex somewhere? no 16. Left your house with out telling your parents? yes 17. Had a crush on your neighbor? no 18. Ditched school to do something more fun? high school no, have in college 19. Slept in a bed with a member of the opposite sex? yes 20. Lost a friend? yes 21. Been on a plane? yes 22. Been to an island? yes 23. Slept in until 3? yes 24. Love someone or miss someone right now? yes 25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? yes 26. Made a snow angel? yes 27. Played dress up? yes 28. Cheated while playing a game? yes 29. Been lonely? yes 30. Kissed more than 4 people in one night? yes 31. Been to a club? yes 32. Felt an earthquake? yes 33. Touched a snake? yes 34. Ran a red light? quite frequently 35. Been suspended from school? no 36. Had detention? nope 37. Been in a car accident? don't wanna talk about it 38. Hated the way you look? yes 39. Made yourself throw up? don't wanna talk about this one 40. Crawled through a window? yes 41. Been lost? yes 42. Been to the opposite side of the country? kind of hard when you live in the middle 43. Felt like dying? yes 44. Cried yourself to sleep? did last night 46. Sang karaoke? yep 47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? yes 48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? yep 49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? yes, many times 50. Kissed in the rain? no...i wish 51. Sang in the shower? yes 52. Made love in a park? uhh no 53. Had a dream that you married someone? yes 54. Glued your hand to something? yes 55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? ummm...no 56. Ever gone to school partially naked? if you count band as school 57. Been a cheerleader? don't wanna talk about it 59. Didn't take a shower for a week? ewwww 60. Ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone? not really...i'm quite the fan of scary movies 61. Played chicken? yes 62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? haha...yes 63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? yes 64. Broken a bone? nope 65. Been easily amused? yes 66. Laugh so hard you cry? yes 67. Mooned/flashed someone? no! 68. Cheated on a test? yes 69. Forgotten someone's name? a few 74. Played a prank on someone? yes 75. Gone to a late night movie? nope 76. Made love to anything not human? that's disgusting 77. Failed a class? no 78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? no 79. Smoked pot? yes...didn't like it so much 80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? no 81. Celebrate the 4th of July? yes 82. Thrown strange objects? yes 83. Felt like killing someone? yes 84. Thought about running away? yes 85. Ran away? no 86. Got a piercing? only the normal ones...in the ears 87. Cut your own hair? trimmed 89. Made a parent cry? if i did they didn't show it 90. Cried over someone? yes...like i said, I cried myself to sleep last night 91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? no 92. Dated someone more than once? yes 93. Had/Have a dog? yes 94. Have an iPod? yes 95. Smoked a cigarette? yes 96. Been in a band? kinda sorta 97. Drank 25 sodas in a day? no! 98. Broken a CD? yeah 99. Shot a gun? nope 100. Wanted someone but could never have them? ummm...how's right now for example?
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| Feels like I have always known you
And I swear I dreamt about you
All those endless nights I was alone
It's like I've spent forever searching
Now I know that it was worth it
With you it feels like I am finally home
Falling head over heels
Thought I knew how it feels
But with you it's like the first day of my life
Cuz you leave me speechless
When you talk to me
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
Can't help but surrender
My everything to you
I thought I could resist you
I thought that I was strong
Somehow you were different from what I've known
I didn't see you coming
You took me by surprise and
You stole my heart before I could say no
Falling head over heels
Thought I knew how it feels
But with you it's like the first day of my life
You leave me speechless
When you talk to me
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
I can't help but surrender
Oh no
My everything to you
You leave me speechless
the way you smile, the way you touch my face You leave me breathless
it's something that you do I can't explain
I run a million miles just to hear you say my name
Baby
You leave me speechless
You leave me breathless
The way you look at me
You manage to disarm me
My soul is shining through
I can't help but surrender
My everything to you
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| So....I'm pretty stoked about this week...Derby Days baby!!!! whoop!
I am so excited...I feel so special that the girls nominated me as our representative for Queen...I'm nervous too though! Even though I know most of the guys and get along with them I'm nervous that a ho is going to beat me because she is the way she is...a ho. oh well...what will be will be!
I'm also really excited about Formal. I have an amazing date, Bob...it's gonna be a good time!!
I'm just all together happy now...maybe me starting to be me again helps...hmmm...I should try it more often!
bye loves~ Me
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